My cross My hope

To the cross I go
Waiting not for a guide
Neither an invitation
Nor a call

I want to be near the cross
Falling on my knee
To pray and cry
To unburden my heart

I want to be near You
For only You can show me the way
For me to walk
For me to run

I want to be the first
Not of me but You
Serving You all my life
Doing your will

God please accept me into your house
Where I know
I don't need to run anymore
The place where I can find rest

Your presence is my security
Your light my world
Your love my all
Your death my birth

Happy is me
Because of You
Your death give me life
In an exchange

Christ please remember me
When You enter into paradise
For I know
I am not worthy of

I want to pray near the cross
Where the beginning and the end meets
Where life and death become friend
Where victory is won
Where Christ die for me.

A close encounter with God 2

Hi I am Jit Wee again, I hope you guys and gals out there are not to bored with me or miss me too much. (Well if you are bored you will not be reading this blog anyway no matter.) This time I will be writing of another encountered I have with God when I am studying in university at Perth Australia.

I am not very clear on what happen on that day but I know I suddenly feel depress and very down. And I need some 'Me' time alone. So I went for a movie marathon session. Where I watch 3 movies in a row starting from 5 pm all the way to 11pm. After finishing the movie marathon, I started walking back to my hostel where I lived. And the encountered take place about 15 minute before I reach my intended destination. While I am walking up the slope where the hostel is located top of the hill. I felt very tired and I am not looking toward the hill top but only at the next step I am taking. One step at a time is all in my mind. The top of the hill look so far away. I feel like I am taking a journey that I can never stop and cannot reach. Everything seem not going as plan. Everything seem to be going against me from all direction. I feel very tired, I feel like giving up, the loneliness is very overwhelming and the burden is choking me to death. I need help and I need strength to walk even the next step. Suddenly I feel like I am the loneliest man on earth.

Alone I look up to the sky though it is very beautiful clear sky and a very bright moon shinning down on me but I cannot appreciate them.

But all of that is going to change, for the next 15 minute of my life is very different. I feel totally opposite of what I felt earlier. I do not feel tired, I do not feel lonely, I feel like I am energize. No more sadness or depress but I feel peace. The worried and anxiety is no more there. I cannot see any physical object or anybody beside me but I feel something. I feel like somebody is walking beside me. I cannot see the person face because he is so huge his head is above the cloud. I feel very safe, I feel as if nothing can go wrong and I do not need to look behind me just in front. As if someone just walk with me, help me, supported me and power me on. Most importantly I am no more the loneliest man on earth I have found a friend that night. And “He” tell I will never be alone for “He” is with me all the time.

All that happen within a short span of time but to me it is like a long time. And from that day I found a friend who I can run to if I have problem and he is always there for me.I do not know how many christian out there have this opportunity to encounter God but for me I feel honor and very happy that God who is all power and almighty notice me when I am down and need a big lift. And he take the trouble to help me at the moment when I need help the most.

God, thank you for everything You have done for me.